Dear DuDu,
Love Your Sister In Christ…Jenifer (Mbali)
I saw your boy today! He was running through the dirt at the Center with his friends. They were climbing on the wire fence, watching the big harvester across the street picking up sugarcane from the fields. He reminds me of my son, Jacob, at that age. Whenever he would see a big tractor or truck outside he would run to the window, squealing in delight at the “big digger”. Jacob wasn’t with me last time I visited Nsoko, so you didn’t get a chance to meet him. I wish I could have introduced you to my family, as you introduced me to yours. I so enjoyed praying and singing with you and your mother the last time I was here. I especially loved holding your baby boy…the way he stared up at me with those deep, brown eyes…
I saw Jesus in those eyes. I’m sorry I never told you that before.
I am so sorry your life ended so soon, DuDu. You suffered…I know. You were suffering when I saw you in 2009; barely able to hold yourself up and struggling to breathe. I know,however, the real suffering was not visible to those around you. The true suffering you carried to the end of your life here on this earth was in knowing you were leaving your precious little son. I can’t even imagine the fear and sorrow that would bring to a mama’s heart…
I want you to know, that your little boy is doing well! I looked deep into those beautiful eyes today and Jesus spoke to my soul in a whisper: “This one is mine…I know him and see him and love him. I am watching over him. I have a plan and a purpose for his life.” I felt a great peace wash over me as I gazed into your boy’s eyes again. I hope and pray that you felt it too. I promise I will look for him every day I am at the Center. I will chase after him and listen to his giggles and, if he allows it, I will scoop him up and wrap my arms around him. With your permission, DuDu, I will whisper into his ear: “Mama loves you, little one. I am sorry I am not with you, but Jesus is with you always and forever. Mama loves you…Jesus loves you…”
I hope you are finally at peace, sisi. Rest in the arms of Jesus, look into His eyes whenever you are missing your little boy. He will give you peace.
Love Your Sister In Christ…Jenifer (Mbali)
OMG!!!! What an absolutely adorable little face! Please give him extra hugs and kisses. Wish I could do the same. How very precious!
beautiful!!!
This made me cry Jenifer….thanks so much for sharing. What a precious, precious little boy…
Through you, Sweetheart, this sweet boy feels and knows the love of his mama, and his Father. I love you.
You made us cry again!! Good tears though. If you do go back, Mom says she will love on the ” little ones” along with you, and I’m sure there will be something for me to do. We love you all so much. It was so good to talk with you today. Love Mom & Dad
Blessings to you and your family! You are doing Gods Will for certain. And we are praying for you and your mission!
I often wonder if my mom worried about leaving her kids behind when she passed away so young. I’ve learned though that God placed special people in my life to tell me stories about her.
This little guy is so blessed to have you! Sometimes we wonder about God’s plan but he always cares for us!
Love you guys!
Crying here and praying. So many little orphans.
Please help them, Jesus. And thank you for letting me love some of them. Use me more, Jesus. Use me more.
tears….
Beautiful letter. My eyes are filled with tears. What a sweet little boy who is fortunate God placed you in his life!